Roadtrips Rock.

I am aaaaabsolutely serious about that!!! My daddey is comin' this Friday and on Sunday we'll leave for the Roadtrip (Colorado, Utah, Nevada, Calfornia - booom!) and in exactly 4 weeks minus 2 days we'll go back to my homecountry from LAX. So excited. Just imagine I meet Jamie Campbell Bower, Jensen Ackles, Zac Efron or someone... I think I'd just kinda somehow all of a sudden get married to them. No joke. Maybe I'd be like "Hey, would you say 'yes' for me?" And then I'd just give 'em a ring and be like "I'm so happy we're eventually married!!!" (And they'd be like WTF!!!)

Naah. Let's be realistic. I gotta become an actress first, and then we'll work it out!

Anyway. Nooo lesson for today... Just wanted to say Hi and that in 4 weeks I'll start posting more often, since I'll have more time. At least I hope so ... Haha. Weall, anyway, I hope y'all are awesome and have an amazing time, and if you don't, I'll send you a virtual hug (: Everything's gonna be okay, in the end.

Looove youuuu! 
xo

Soon the new day.

Hi guys,

first of all - I feel so guilty for not posting in the past 2 months! Good news is, July is almost here and I'll have a lot more time to post! I will open a fashion channel on youtube as well & a fashion blog... this one's more about my thoughts!

Guess what? I bought so many clothes that I like without caring about other people's opinions, I stood up for other people, I stood up for myself - it was awesome!
Of course, I also made a lot of mistakes in the past months - for example telling two of my former friends that I don't wanna be friends no more. I did that via text message which was a mistake - they won't accept my apology for that now, and hate me, but that's okay with me. I will never regret anything and I still mean what I said, I just should've done it face to face and not on some messenger. So, a tip for your future - don't ever 'break up' with someone via text message, it hurts them, makes them hate you and is disrespectful. 
But - I know my mistakes and my flaws, and that makes me strong. Always stand by your mistakes, accept that you made them and do it better next time! A mistake isn't something bad, we all make mistakes and that's okay. It's okay to make mistakes, as long as you don't deny making them.
If you made the same mistake that I made with my former friends and they won't accept your apology no more, then be okay with it because you know you made a mistake and you feel sorry and if they don't accept your apology, there is nothing you can change about that. It's okay that they don't - you did everything you could. Don't let them bring you down by saying 'you figured you wouldn't have friends without us' or 'you just say that because you feel guilty' - you know the truth. 
And even if you just say it because you feel guilty - feeling guilty says you still care, obviously, and you really mean the apology.

Right now I am listening to "Soon The New Day" by Talib Kweli ft. Norah Jones, and I love it. You really should listen to it! It helps with moving on about something that bothered you for a long time.
I broke up with my boyfriend last week and I felt like crap after it, but I knew it wouldn't work out and I'm more a person who want's to explore things - I wanna have more than just one relationships, I need time to go party and make out with just some random guy that I meet, I wanna have experiences, be stupid and do a lot of things wrong because in the end, they're all stories I can tell my children. I wanna get my acting career going, be successful, party, dance, kiss, have fun - all that before I settle down.

This is my time, and it's going to be my time until I'm at least 26. If I don't have a long relationship until then, that's okay. I'm not the relationship kind of girl anyway. I care and I'm genuine with everything, and my friends are important to me and my (ex)boyfriend was and is, but it's not the right thing for me.

I know who I am now, and I'm okay with it. I'll change what I want to change if I can change it, and everything else I will accept and move on. Worst case scenario is, cry a river, build a bridge and get over it. But I guess, my 'haters' will have to do that more than I will - if they think I'm a bitch, that's okay with me. Think what you want. Your opinion doesn't define me. 

LOVE you guys! You are beautiful, awesome, intellegent, great, every good thing there is in this world, no matter what other people say about you! Don't ever let them bring you down!

xoxo Hannah

Not anymore.

Hi there!

Finally, I got time again - yeah. When I'm back home in July, I will have more time to post things! But here, everything is just sooo exciting!

In the few months I spent time away from home now, I really found myself! I qualified for the State Forensics on my first tournament, and broke into finals again in my second one (without qualifying).
Honestly, now even my mom is convinced! She'll let me go to an acting school in LA as soon as I turn 18!

Okay. However. As I said - I found myself here. What that means? I'm so done playing nice. Seriously. It's just not me. I mean, sure, I like to help people, give advice and all that stuff. But I don't see the sense in trying to make people like me anymore. I wanna dress the way I like. I wanna talk the way I like. And I don't wanna hear "Aw, she's so cute" anymore. I don't wanna have a lot of friends - I just need one real friend. All the others are nice and stuff, but it's like out of sight, out of mind.
I want to wear heels, color my hair, wear the makeup I like. And I'm sick of being judged for it before I even do it, I'm sick of getting weird looks when I just talk about it. Look at me however you want to, I don't care anymore.
People say "Live your life the way you want to be remembered" and mostly interprete it as: Don't hurt anyone. Be nice to everyone. Don't say what you feel. Society is like "Be who you are" and then says "No, not like that." Honestly, I'm done.
What if I want to be remembered as a "bitch"? Maybe I want to be remembered as the girl who dressed the way she liked to, did what she wanted and cared about nothing and no one's opinions at all. Maybe I want to be remembered as the girl who cussed, freaked out, just let go of everything that made her unhappy and then stood in the rain and started dancing and shouted "Fuck it all". Maybe I just want to fuck everything and everyone and just do what makes me happy. People who love me the way I am will stay with me and the rest doesn't belong in my life anyway.
I just don't care anymore. Fuck it all. Because, in the end, who else but me will there be? The only person I can disappoint is me, and I choose not to do that.

Break it off.

I'm soooo sorry! So, so, so sorry. I've been damn busy, seriously, and it was just sooo much fun and I love it here and everything is just ... kinda  perfect, to be honest.

I found the best acting schools ever, by the way, and they are not even too expensive! Wellllll. I'll tell you about them in the next post (whenever I'll post the next time...)

What I actually wanted to tell you, I'm having another blog called folie en rouge, which means something like "craziness in red". It just came to me, and this blog will talk about my life. I mean, amatterofact does, too, but in a different way. I hope that I'll soon be able to get a goood camera and take some fashion photos! Somewhen when I'm back in my, somewhat, home country, I'll do a blog with my best friend on fashion and best friends and it's gonna be a looot of fun, so I'll just tell you in July or August when it opens (:

In the next post I'm gonna me more motivating again, promised! Just don't have time today to express my emotions and the way I feel about things!

Love you guys! Byebye,
Hannah

About Art.

"She wasn't beautiful. She looked like art. And art isn't supposed to look nice, it's supposed to make you feel something." 

Hi there, me again.
I got this quote on instagram today, and I loved it, and since I didn't post anything for 10 days now, I thought I'd post it now. I hope you had a wonderful, merry christmas and spend it with the ones you love or at least in a beautiful atmosphere!

Sorry but I can't write that much today. It's late in Germany... aaaaand: There's just one week left until I can say "Wheels down in NY!" I swear, I'm SO looking forward to my time in the USA!!! I love, love, love the States! Seriously.

However, I watched The Perks Of Being A Wallflower and Life As We Know It this weekend and I just wanted to tell you that I always have to cry about one quote from Charlie in The Perks (short form, too lazy to write it out). I wanna share that one with you. I hope it will inspire you as much as it inspired me and make you feel better in any situation, if you just remember it.

Oh, and: I will now share a quote from that movie in every post! And you will get to know my New Year's resolutions in the next post!

Finally, before I post the quote, just a tip for you: Write all the bad thoughts and things that happened this year (and all the bad feelings you had, too!) on a sheed of paper, and then, between 12am and 1am, set it on fire. Burn it. Watch all the bad things burn in the fire. And then, be positive. Write your New Year's resolutions on a sheet of paper and always keep them with you!

Now, the quote. Eventually.

"I don't know if I will have the time to write any more letters because I might be too busy trying to participate. So if this does end up being the last letter I just want you to know that I was in a bad place before I started high school and you helped me. Even if you didn't know what I was talking about or know someone who's gone through it, you made me not feel alone. Because I know there are people who say all these things don't happen. And there are people who forget what it's like to be 16 when they turn 17. I know these will all be stories someday. And our pictures will become old photographs. We'll all become somebody's mom or dad. But right now these moments are not stories. This is happening. I am here and I am looking at her. And she is so beautiful. I can see it. This one moment when you know you're not a sad story. You are alive, and you stand up and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And you're listening to that song and that drive with the people you love most in this world. And in this moment I swear, we are infinite."

Think about this quote. Let it run your mind. Live it.
I love you, no matter who you are, you are wonderful and sweet and beautiful and absolutely worth more than the world.

xo Hannah

Memories Of Tomorrow.

Hi guys!

Here I am once again. And thank you SO much for now 130 visitors! WOW! This is really, really awesome and I love, love, love you for visiting my blog! Please keep spreading it (:

Well, I'm being pretty close to the 7th January now, what means, close to going to the U.S., what means - close to New York and that means, close to seeing my host family and that means... I'm gonna take the first step to make my dream come true! Dear United States Of America, here I come, and I'm so happy!

I just finished the Christmas present for my best friends and my cousin and I got my parents some gifts, too. I'm pretty lucky that I finally did that, since I thought I wouldn't make it until next week's Tuesday. Phew!

At the moment, I'm writing my new book again (The Legend Of Pliss) and I finished my other one (Bonavia - The Quest) as well. I hope a publisher will print it! But, honestly, I think they will. I'm a good writer and as long as I don't give up, I will somewhen find someone to publish it! Just think about J.K. Rowling - no one wanted to publish her books and now every single man in the world knows them and most children and teenagers absolutely adore them.
While I'm writing, I listen to Coldplay's "Fix You". I love this song, just like I love "The Scientist".
However, no blog without any quotes, right? At least not my blog without any.

Advice for today: Live your life the way you want to. Don't care about what other people think. Risk more than required. Be strong. Show courage. Love. Lead. Speak the truth. Laugh louder. Have fun. Shatter your limits. Follow your dreams, and dream big but start small. Act now. Don't stop. Never. Make time for the ones you love and for doing the things you love. Run through fields, sit in the sun with friends. Go to parties, come home late, take buses and trains, don't care where they'll get you. Be with those special people that you love. Sit in coffee shops with your friends. Talk about everything and nothing. Be adventurous. Today makes the memories of tomorrow.

Now get out there and do your thing!
Love ya,
xo Hannah

Good Vibes Only.

Hi guys,

it's me again. Kinda weird, but I have to say that I guess I'll be getting addicted to blogging, haha.
However, thank you soooo much for the 37 visitors in my first two days on blogger.com! You are awesome, please keep visiting if you're interested in my blog and don't be ashamed to comment!

I'm slowly developing a plan how I will make it in my future, which means how I will achieve my dream and  you just gotta do the same! (Dreams are Goals with Deadlines, right?) But always remember: "Work hard in silence, let success make the noise!" I believe in you! If you need some advice, just text me (amatterofact@hotmail.com) and I will do my best to help you develop your plan and help you to achieve your dream!
I can just say, you can tell people about your dreams and plans but don't expect them to be like "Uhu, uhu... yes... WOW! This is awesome, I really believe you can do that!" because either a) they think you can do that but they actually don't want you to make it or b) they are so uninspired and fanciless that they will tell you you can't do it! Don't believe them! They probably aren't brave enough to even think about making their own dreams come true!

And most importantly: Never ever ever let people bring you down! You are beautiful, you are talented, you made it through so many difficult situations, you're strong, you're awesome and most of all: You are unique. Don't make the mistake to die a copy. Don't let other people influence your character and actions in a way they want you to be, so that in the end you're their copy. That's freakin' bullshit.

You may get doubts, well, I do, as I told you in my last post, but never give up! You got that? Never give up. Giving up is one of the biggest mistakes people make. However, you may never think you will succeed over night - NOPE! You won't. I mean, not even Jennifer Lawrence and Bob Marley did.
They had to work their asses off to succeed and you're gonna have to do the same. You're gonna  have to bash your way through, and that means, you will also hurt other people. NO, you won't hurt them with words or by punching them in the face (always keep your attitude good and be humble!), you will hurt them by getting a place they actually want! However, lways be clear about the fact that they deserve it, too!
And remember: There will always be someone who's better than you, looks better than you, acts or sings better than you, but they will never ever be you!
You needa fight for your dreams. If you're like "I'm gonna go to a good acting school and that's it, I will succeed", I gotta tell you "No, that's not it" (I know that even though I haven't made it yet, ya know). You have to be like "I'll start now, take singing lessons, take acting lessons, visit acting workshops, travel to many different places, I'll get an agent, audition for some roles in movies, get into an acting agency, then, in two years after I got some experience, I will visit a good acting school, improve my skills, keep searching for roles" and THEN, one day, you'll have made it. You'll have achieved your dream.
This doesn't only work for acting, this works for singing or any other job you want as well. Just keep going, make plans. The world needs dreamers, the world needs doers, but most of all, the world needs dreamers who do! 

And now, I'm gonna say "See ya soon", think about my post, think about if you really want it. Then, start doing.
Love y'all. 
xo Hannah

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